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[23 Jun 2006|08:56pm] |
And Adolfo said:
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[23 Jun 2006|08:06pm] |
ah booo. i hate mood swings.
anyway.
im off to golf and stuff
fun!
and then some goooooooooooooooooood TACOS
(the ones adolfo cant handle : ] )
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[22 Jun 2006|06:50pm] |
i was late to class .
Oops !
well. anyway.
its a mellow day.
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[21 Jun 2006|08:12pm] |
WANT TO FIND YOURSELF?
READ IT
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[21 Jun 2006|07:52pm] |
There's is nothing really wrong with us, we're great.
But like the movie CLOSER.
Im over it.
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[20 Jun 2006|08:48pm] |
ADOPT ME
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[19 Jun 2006|01:22pm] |
i have four kitties.
who wants one?
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[18 Jun 2006|10:37am] |
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mediocres everywhere.
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[17 Jun 2006|10:24am] |
confusion?
no i dont even know anymore
is this what i want?
to take back an ex boyfriend that fucked up?
i dunno if i love him anymore.
does that matter?
im 19 years old and im stuck
where do we go from now?
a silhouette lie?
i went through pictures on his phone
.. there were a bunch of strippers..
and this girl.. i just dont like
and i erased them all.. all of them.
they were dated before we started talking again
but what does that matter?
what kind of person is this?
he said he started going to church more after we broke up last year... to become a better person..
what? did i make him a bad person?
what kind of person did he think he became after me?
having a gf and cheating on her...
i dunno about you but that doesnt seem to be a better person
what a mediocre...
he's not a hypocrite.. hes a mediocre
loving something he just cant make happy.
actually he does really love me.
but he's too ... weird.
no. i dont think leaving derek was a mistake
i didnt love him either.
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[13 Jun 2006|07:55pm] |
today.
was an ok day.
ONLY im stuck on GOD OF WAR.
i cant pass this stage.
well there's not much to pass.
its just you have to figure shit out...
frustrating.
i quit i think.
whatever.
anyway my cat has a swollen toe.
and now its red and george wont take him to the vet.
i hate george sometimes.
he can buy 140 dollar shoes for work
but he cant take our cat to the vet.
and if i had a job id do it.
but i recently bought a car and dont got the money.
so i bought that peroxide bottle and washed his toe with it
poor kittie was crying
but i hope that helped.
hopefully i can go over tonight and see if hes doing ok.
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[08 Jun 2006|08:07pm] |
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ok soo... i have this speech class. and like two days ago we had this assignment to bring an object to class and talk about it for at least 3 minutes. Well, the day that i was due, i didnt show cuz i dont really have anything for a show and tell kind of thing. So the teacher told me i could do it today, so... i was going crazy at home trying to find something to bring to class but i couldnt find ANYTHING and then i found this one necklace that i completely forgot about. and its a really important necklace for me. i mean ive had it since i was like 9 yeats old. anyway. so i decide that im gonna take this necklace to class and show and tell my story, but when i got to class i couldnt remember where i left it. so i think i lost it. and im just so sad : ( <--- as you can see. but i really hope i find this necklace. damn assignment.
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[05 Jun 2006|08:19pm] |
its funny how if you dont know spanish. you wont get it.
"Brindo por la mujer, mas no por esa
en la que halláis consuelo en la tristeza,
rescoldo del placer ¡desventurados!;
no por esa que os brinda sus hechizos
cuando besáis sus rizos
artificiosamente perfumados.
Yo no brindo por ella, compañeros,
siento por esta vez no complaceros.
Brindo por la mujer, pero por una,
por la que me brindó sus embelesos
y me envolvió en sus besos;
por la mujer que me arrulló en la cuna.
Por la mujer que me enseñó de niño
lo que vale el cariño
exquisito, profundo y verdadero;
por la mujer que me arrulló en sus brazos
y que me dió en pedazos
uno por uno, el corazón entero.
¡Por mi madre!.. bohemios, por la anciana
que piensa en el mañana
como en algo muy dulce y muy deseado,
porque sueña tal vez que mi destino
me señala el camino
por el que volveré pronto a su lado.
Por la anciana adorada y bendecida,
por la que con su sangre me dió vida,
y ternura y cariño;
por la que fue la luz del alma mía;
y lloró de alegría
sintiendo mi cabeza en su corpiño.
Por esa brindo yo, dejad que llore,
que en lágrimas desflore
esta pena letal que me asesina;
dejad que brinde por mi madre ausente,
por la que llora y siente
que mi ausencia es un fuego que calcina.
Por la anciana infeliz que sufre y llora
y que del cielo implora
que vuelva yo muy pronto a estar con ella;
por mi madre bohemios, que es dulzura
vertida en mi amargura
y en esta noche de mi vida, estrella . .. "
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[04 Jun 2006|02:18pm] |
watching almost famous
Almost Famous, reminds me of a short asian girl i used to know : )
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[01 Jun 2006|07:09pm] |
ok sooooooooo.
my gradutaion ceremony passed and i didnt even know.
this school sucks big time.
i thought they would send me something in the mail.
now my mom is gonna kill me cuz she wanted this more than i did.
what kind of school doesnt tell you when you're supposed to graduate?
thats just dumb
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[25 May 2006|08:47pm] |
you know what sucks balls?
not having a damn car
man oh man
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[24 May 2006|08:13pm] |
well ive been up and down.
i think?
not like ive been sad
just like BLAH
brandon wants to go fishing today
i dunno
i was like yeah lets go
but now i dont want to anymore
see what im saying?
im hating this moood
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[17 May 2006|06:12pm] |
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what a day.
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[11 May 2006|07:51pm] |
i dont even know where it started. or how it started. it just did. first it was "help me with my math" then it was just "wanna go watch a movie?". it felt wrong at first. but when i was there with him. it just felt so right. he was like the perfect man ive looked for my whole life. i felt like ive known him my whole life. and when it was over with george. i couldnt wait to be with him. he would send me flowers. he was awesome. i didnt know what to think. and then he kissed me that one night. and my life was turned around. upside down. i was floating. flying through every day. i think i loved him. i cant help but sit here and cry because he stopped calling me. he said. "how could you love someone, and then suddenly stop? love doesnt work that way. you dont just suddenly wake up and decide you dont love someone anymore" i was speechless. did i not love him? ever? was i lying to myself? who knows. when i was with him, george seemed to be just a mistake. but then he came to see me. he came. to my work. showed up wondering what id do. unsure. george the child. we hugged. and then i knew. even though derek is perfect. george is my life. and it was there the whole time. the cats. our love child. if he didnt love me anymore, why did he keep them? even though he doesnt like cats. he still to this day complains about them. he never stopped. derek was right. you dont just wake up and tell yourself that youre gonna stop loving someone. it doesnt work that way. george loved me. period. and i loved him. and even though i miss derek so much. i cant see my life without george.
but im still young.
my life is ways away from ending.
we'll see what happens.
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[08 May 2006|08:58pm] |
booooo
take me out.
soon.
<3
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[07 May 2006|12:13pm] |
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lying is the most fun a girl can have without having to take her clothes off
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